here we are now; entertain us

soundcheck: who am i
i am a flower quickly fading,
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still You, hear me when i'm calling

and You told me who i am

well well, here i am once again.. its now 11 25, and everyone else is fast asleep.. moodle's been giving me much-needed assistance for tue's spa, so why not drop by? past few days have been rather surreal.. as in real, and yet not real.. ok, i've no idea what i'm rambling abt..

this is rather random (as always), and can be said to be a long time coming.. with all honesty here, no flowery imageries or whatnot, i'm feeling like maybe when this hockey season is over, it really should stay that way for me too.. bef you dismiss this as some emo rant, its not.. it's just, i can't seem to click with them, even the players for 07/08.. it's no one's fault, and the fact that we easily spend like 20 hrs each wk means that there are times in trng or outside when it can get a lil dry & lonesome.. such situations really make me wonder if what ppl say is true, that God is in control of every circumstance.. obviously He knows how i feel abt, well, hockey.. and while at times i feel so tempted cling on.. mmm.. sorry, if any of the 06/07 hockers is reading this and feels insulted in any way, pls accept my humble apologies; it was never my intention to do so.. i just thought here's somewhere ideal that i'd let off some steam.. wish i could've stayed true..

"oh well, whatever, never mind"
.. which is why i have deep respect for fighters.. not those boxer or ninja-kind fighters, but just fighters in everyday context; ppl who fight for what they believe it, who stick to their guns even when the surroundings hate them to the core.. a new addition to the list is kurt cobain.. i better justify my choice bef chris comes aft me at nxt cell grp.. drugs are obviously wrong, and that's a part of him that gives meaning to "err is human".. i'm not saying drugs is ok, it's just that we shld sometimes look at others' +ves instead of the -ves all the time.. as i was saying, i respect him for being able to express himself so vividly in the songs he wrote, be it tenderness, vulnerability or rebellion.. here stood someone who wasn't swayed by fame or money or whatever else consumes rock stars these days- he just wanted to stick to his kind of music, and stay true to himself.. i know it sounds cliched, and that i sound like a bloody fool musing over some suicidal, dead rockstar.. but at the end of the day, he stuck to his guns, to his beliefs.. how many of us can honestly attest to that?

class is going well, this grp of us that just seem to find each other and hang out.. and for once, i'm not lagging behind in schoolwork.. gotta admit that aft one full year of trying to catch with the syllabus, finding myself ahead of lessons takes some getting used to as well..

dear utd were knocked out of champsleague on thurs, but i won't be a sore loser.. milan fully deserved to win, while the manutd of recent wks simply did not turn up in italy.. kudos to kaka & co, hope they beat loserpool in the final.. maybe they should change their name to tycopool.. just jk, don't kill me.. i hope arsenal can at least draw tmw, then at least manutd would have won something significant this season.. and so i won't have to wake on may 9..

since i started this post abt hockey, let's end with the same topic.. acjc awaits us on wed.. seems like sa & ac just have that sporting affinity.. one match with an ac sch brought abt one bout of childish taunts & replies.. it'll be interesting to see what happens aft the 2nd ac match-up in as many wks..
peace..

quote of the day: the more you search for something, the more you'll miss the fact that it's right in front of you, staring you in the face.