one nocturnal sonofagun

soundcheck: cupid's chokehold (gym class heroes)

without warning, it's now 3rd wk, and soon it'll be the eve of common test..agn.. to be honest, not much really has changed in the run up to CT.. i'm still rotting away in front of the gogglebox, and i'm still not running or doing the pull ups i said i'd do "when i have time".. yeah, so i procrastinate.. whatever, nothing seems to faze me anymore.. not even the fact i don't rmbr half the econs nonsense in front of me.. and though i hear how j1s are fretting over their CT results when they haven't even started.. a year ago, i would've said such worrying was ridiculous, but then again most of my opinions have changed since a year ago, not least the ppl that are really there for you..
they say time is the 3rd dimension, but now it's just another intangible something to me.. i don't even know what that means anymore.. it's not even 2300 and alr i can't think straight.. ahaha..
well, back to the starting, in a lil over a wk, CT will come and go, CT results and parent-tchr meetings and whatever comes will come and will not go away.. then it'll be back to another round of slackyshit trngs, trials for dsas and otherwise, whole new intros to be made, all that team-bonding, getting-to-know-each-other nonsense again.. then, cramming for promos, blahblah, nonstop hol trng blahblah.. i'm tired just thinking of what i'm gonna get into..agn.. well, like i said, nothing seems to jolt me out of lethargy at this pt in time..maybe i should've quit & joined guitar club.. haha
a friend who's reminded of her painful past, but he can do nothing to ease it for her
anyhow, i'm not proud to admit, but i seem to feel as if i couldn't care less that i haven't read the bible in ages.. i know what everyone thinks abt holy goody two shoes christians, but i fking hate it when they categorise christians under that umbrella.. of course we hear of ppl that seem so holy and sanctified that it seems as if they sail thru like, but no such person exists, obviously.. so i'm just sick&tired of having comments tossed arnd.. on another pt, was reading the scrapbook that i started early this year, but couldn't be bothered to add on.. it feels weird to read all those christian phrases and whatnot in my handwriting, 'cos now, they don't register a single thing in me, kind of like how that econs notes is right now.. just words..
shoot, i just wrote another pointless, directionless and meaningless post agn.. haha.. for what it's worth, you know what they say abt life imitating art..
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