if your heart's not in it

soundcheck: if your heart's not in it (westlife)

today, for the first time ever, i feel age creeping up on me. ok, that's probably a tad premature. i'm not having mid-midlife crisis yet, but signs all around seem to be waking me up way before september ends. if you know what i mean. duh, friends my age have plans to start their own businesses, getting jobs, falling in love (let's not even get into that. haha). pray God they last. haha. it's so much easier to get washed away in the cliched sand of father time.

if there was ever a watershed, eye-opening moment of just how grown-up the working world is, tonight was it. weird, no doubt, seeing these ppl in shirts and ties when i last saw them in our school uniforms. honestly, i know zeep about net(work) marketing, or pdts+services, but hey, why not learn some biz-related skills, rather than let the govt rot my life for the next 18mths. haha i could even pick up some PR skills too. well let's face it; i'm not exactly the most sociable chap in the block. haha.

i'll say that for now, at least in the foreseeable future, i can't really picture myself in shirt and tie 5 days a week. but we live only once (or so they say); if there was ever a time to be adventurous and try something totally insane, i suppose now's the time. at least i'm 20 years OLD, not some 50-year-mid-lifer. if i were to step out of my comfort zone, anyone wants to be my safety net??

so forget britney spears; i'm still a boy, but i am man, hear me ROARRR. haha